Letter to Jed: 2 weeks

Dear Jed,

I can't believe you are already 2 weeks old. It's crazy because on one hand the last 2 weeks have absolutely flown by, but at the same time it seems insane to think that it has only been 2 weeks since you came into the world,  I feel like you have been part of our lives forever. 

I absolutely loved being pregnant with you,  I think I was lucky because you made it so easy for me, but I was so ready to meet you by the time your due date came. You didn't keep us waiting long and made your appearance on Father's day, which was a lovely present for your Dad.

People tell you before you become a parent that you'll never worry so much but you'll never love someone so much either and they couldn't be more spot on! I have worried that I'm picking you up too much or not enough, I've worried because you lost so much weight to start with and I don't think I've ever cried so much in such a short space of time at the idea that you weren't getting what you needed from me and I was so worried when they said you might need to go back into hospital, but we're getting there you and I, we're both learning and I need to remember that. Every time they tell me you've put on a bit more weight I feel so proud and happy!

You are currently fast asleep in my arms and I feel like my heart could melt every time I look at you. You already have your Dad and I in stitches with some of the faces/poses you pull.

I think Saxon is a bit wary of you when you cry, but otherwise he sits near your cot a lot and I can't wait for you two to be best of friends when you are older.

It's such a strange mix of wanting you to stay as small as you are now (although keep putting on weight please), but being so excited to see how you will develop and how your personality will shine through.

Just don't grow up too fast hey baby!

Love always,

Mum x

My first letter to you: to pass on, the possibilities are endless

Most of the below crossed my mind when i thought we were pregnant but before it was even confirmed,  but I thought I'd like to write it down now :0)

So, it's only 10 days until your due and as i sit here with you nudging me :0) I can't stop thinking about what you'll be like, who you'll be like and whether you'll have any of the following traits.

Like your Dad's lighthearted,  easy going nature and gorgeous curly hair. How practical and logical he can be and his ability to be good at anything he tries/puts his mind to. Or my love of languages and ability to lose myself in a book and how I love trying new crafts. Maybe even my love of  photography, which I got from your Grandad, as it really does open your eyes to sights others don't always see.

Other traits which I can't take credit for as they were passed down to me by your Granny and Grandad, for which I am grateful...

...Remember family is important and I hope you feel as I do that you have strong roots, but also wings for wherever you choose life to take you. That's the beauty of strong foundations,  no matter how far you go or how long you're gone, the bond is as solid as it has always been. Some things can't be rocked.

Try something new as often as you can but also take comfort in the things that make you smile on a daily basis. Your Granny and Grandad let me and your aunt and uncle try as many activities as we wanted when we were growing up and I will always be grateful for that.

Your Granny and Grandad worked very hard so that Uncle Chris, Auntie Lila and I could have the life we have and the interesting, fun and happy childhood we did and your Dad and I promise to always strive to be able to provide the same for you.

Have faith in what your heart feels as well as what your head is telling you.

Treat others how you would like someone to treat your loved ones and don't forget to stick up for the underdog, sometimes people can't always make themselves heard, so if you can help someone out then you should.

Never stop asking questions.  Have an open mind and conviction in your beliefs. 

If you find something you are passionate about,  hold on to it and don't let go!

We will always be here for you and I promise you will always be able to tell us anything that is on your mind, we will always listen.

I hope you have a full and happy life, that you make many great friends along the way and make some fantastic memories for yourself.

Some regrets will come along the way, they always do, learn from them and move on. Don't hold on to them or hold grudges, your heart will be so much lighter for it.

Go out and make yourself proud and most of all remember that your Dad and I love you x