Dear Quinn,
As we move into December and get closer to your birthday..."just before Santa comes" as you like to tell me, I just wanted to write to you. There have been countless times I've thought ooh I'll write a letter to the boys about this or that and now I realise nearly a whole year has gone by without me doing just that. So, I thought why not now, even if it's not perfect, it's still here for you to read one day, and that's what I care about. Capturing a small snapshot of our lives.
Time has such a way of running away from us. It's utter madness to think that you've been in our lives for almost three years. They have gone by in the blink of an eye, and I so often worry that in years to come I will look back and really mourn just how quickly they did go...and how a lot of the time I didn't exactly feel present in the moment. I'm working on that though, for both you boys, and for me, I promise.
With being the youngest and having to follow in Jed's wake a lot of the time, between running to and from school runs, swimming lessons, appointments etc, I mean I even timed toilet training you around when we'd be at home for half term, I worry sometimes about how you feel you fit into it all. You are so easy going that you just get on with everything, usually with a huge smile on your face and I just wanted to let you know, I see you, sweetheart...
I see you with your gorgeously cheeky little face and grin that will get you in (and out of) trouble in the future no doubt.
I see how you are growing so tall. You are almost as tall as Jed already. He loves saying to people "he's so tall and he's only two".
I see you being interested in so many things, from puzzles, to cars, to dressing up, to books.
I see you stopping to stroke and fuss every cat or dog you see, "can me say hello mummy?". You get that from me sweetheart.
I hear you when you chat and chat away. Your language is so good and I love hearing you not just speak to us, but using little sayings and expressions too.
I hear you when you call Archer a cutie pie.
I hear you every time you say "I love you Mummy" and how you smile when I say it back. You say it to me all the time, and I hope you know how those four words light up my heart. Every. Single. Time. I find it adorable that when I ask you what that means, you put your shoulders all the way up to your ears and say "I don't know" and then give me the biggest cheeky grin.
I hear you when you are making up games in the back of the car with Jed "Jed you look for black cars, mummy look for green cars, daddy look for blue cars and I'll look for red cars". You have an uncanny knack of picking a colour that we then see lots of.
I hear you when you are making up song after song, about potatoes (yes, potatoes) or fire trucks or trains, anything goes. I hear you singing along to We Belong Together from Toy Story, the Woody song you call it. Apparently, they say a child who sings is a happy child, so I hope that's true. I love hearing Daddy often say "He's a happy little guy isn't he"
I hear you when you reply to me at night saying "noche mi amor", I love that it sounds more like "Noche meee amoort" and get out of bed to give me one last hug or kiss.
I see you being so sweet and generous.
I see you being forgiving after Jed has maybe not been the kindest, yet your big heart welcomes him back instantly.
I see you try and comfort people when you think they are sad.
I see you, sweetheart, and everything that goes with this adorably fun, sweet age that you are.
I am so proud of you. Daddy and I both are...and I hope you know that and know just how much you are loved, and how we wouldn't be the same as a family without you.
I love you sweetheart.
Love always,
Mummy x