Monday, 27 February 2017

Dear Quinn

Dear Quinn,

As I write this it's the 19th of Feb, 2017 and you are just over 8 weeks old.

You are currently fast asleep on me and snoring gently...


I have NO idea where the last 8 weeks have gone, not a clue. I remember thinking the same when your brother was younger, but it feels like you've always been with us.

You are getting so big already, at 8 weeks old you are already busy over 2ft! I'm even having to put you in some 3-6 clothes... That's crazy!

Jed adores you, he really does. He is always saying "hello baby Quinn" and always asks where you are, even if he already knows the answer and he is constantly showering you with kisses and isn't content to go to bed without giving you a kiss and a cuddle.

I hope you boys grow up to be thick as thieves I really do. I think the gap between you will be a really nice one, or at least I hope it will.

You have the same eyes as Jed but other than that you already have more hair than he did at your age and it's darker too. People are always saying how alike you are and although there's no mistaking you are brothers I see Quinn when I look at you not Jed 2 like Jed says sometimes when he sees your photo.

I can't wait to see how you will grow and develop, and whether you'll be as cheeky as your brother, who has us in fits sometimes... Just don't grow up too fast please sweetheart.

Love always,
Mummy x

Letter to my boys

Dear Jed and Quinn,

Quinn you've been with us for just over seven weeks now and it has absolutely flown by, I can't believe it!

You are getting so big already and we had two weeks in a row when you put on about a lb a week, just crazy, but fantastic too.


You are so cute, you've got the same gorgeous sapphire coloured eyes that Jed had, although his changed to be like mine and your Dad's, we'll see what yours do. They are also so big and bright and you are more and more alert every day.


You've just started to smile and the other day you gave Jed a little grin and he called you a beautiful baby boy, it was so sweet.  

Jed you are so sweet as a big brother you are constantly giving Quinn kisses and cuddles and you said proudly the other day "I love baby Quinn" it was so adorable.

You are also really helpful, always wanting to pick out his clothes with me or tuck his blanket around him, or show him his toys. You also like to sit and have him on you, but only for about a second before you say "that's enough" which always makes me smile!

I can't wait to see how you both grow together and look forward to making many memories together.


Love you both, always.

Mummy x

What a year...

It's 31st Dec 2016 and tomorrow is a brand new year.
We have had an amazing year.

In March we welcomed Thalia! Can't wait to meet her. Thanks to photos and videos I feel like we already know her a bit, which is lovely and Jed you like seeing them and waving at her.

April saw us get married, it was amazing, just how I'd always imagined. Yes, it rained (but that didn't matter) we even managed to get out and have our photos taken and the campervan broke down on the way to the church (but I'd got a back up plan so even that was ok - and I didn't cry!) and we were only a couple of mins late. It was great to have so many people there. Sadly Olivia and Thalia couldn't be there but I was so touched that Uncle Chris came! During the service you shouted Mama and I will never forget that, it's one of my lasting memories from the day, that and the smile your dad gave me when I reached the top of the aisle. It was lovely and chilled out (or at least it felt it to me) and I was so happy. I love hearing your Dad call me his wife!!

While on our mini honeymoon week off we found out that we were expecting again, which was a lovely surprise.

The summer saw your dad change jobs and we got to spend a lot more time with him, even fitting in some park trips of an evening etc, which was lovely. It also saw me growing bigger and bigger.
Jed you were quite excited to become a big brother and seemed to really understand what was going on.

Your Dad and I went on our honeymoon to Sardinia, which was lovely but you were missed. Although you had a fantastic week with Granny and Grandad and days out with Nanny and Grandad.


December saw us get ready for the baby to arrive. You seemed excited about Christmas and Santa coming. We enjoyed doing the Advent books again and you were so good with only opening up one a day and you LOVED your advent calendar. You've been quite funny being bossy and telling people not to touch the Christmas tree and have been so excited about it all, which as I love Christmas has been perfect.

Well the baby's due date of 15th December came and went, we went on various bumpy car journeys to try and help it along and bounced on the gym ball for ages and danced around the living room etc, but nothing. Contractions finally started on the 21st and were on and off until Thursday afternoon when they seemed to completely stop. Luckily your dad finished his night shift early and was home about 1:30, as at 3am contractions woke me up. After talking to the hospital and really wanting to wait for a room at the MWLU we got there at 6:30 and Quinn you were born at 7:01. I remember even though I was half out of it when you were here saying that "I always saw us with two boys" and I was right. I was so pleased that you were finally here and that you had arrived safely (and very quickly) and I couldn't wait to get you home to your big brother.  Jed you'd been spending the day with Auntie Lila,  as she'd stayed at ours just in case, and apparently you'd been singing Happy Birthday Baby, which is just adorable.

My heart is so full it's crazy!...
When Jed you ask to hold Quinn or give him a kiss for no apparent reason.
The fact that you called him The Boy or my brother/sister for a couple of days.
How small and sweet you are already Quinn and how soft your head is.
How you can be upset but the second we pick you up everything seems right in your world.
How on boxing day they said you'd only lost 4.8%  of your body weight, (up to 8% is normal) which compared to Jed's 11% was amazing, as I was worried we might have the same feeding issues we had with Jed.
The gorgeous wrinkly, frowning,  sleepy faces you pull Quinn.
How amazing your Dad is. He's been looking after me so well (hormones after birth have got so much to answer for) making sure I always have a drink, or making me cookies because I mentioned I fancied some...or taking both of you downstairs so I can try and have a bit of sleep etc and just generally being really reassuring.  Looking after your every need as feeding a newborn is demanding... Although Jed you've been very patient with that too... And so sweet when you have seen me emotional, giving me hugs etc.

I was so worried before you got here Quinn, I just couldn't imagine being a mum of two, and I know it's going to be a bit tough to start with, like the other day Jed when all you wanted was your dad (who had popped out) and Quinn you cried each time I put you down and I just couldn't see how we'd all get dressed. But we'll get there. I'll also try my hardest to make sure that our relationship doesn't suffer Jed.

I hope you don't mind your birthday being SO close to Christmas Quinn, but remember you kept us waiting for 8 days, so you were obviously not ready yet.

People say you look really similar, I see it a bit but not too much I don't think, haven't quite made my mind up. What do you think? Jed you are on the left, Quinn you are on the right.


Today is Saxon's 10th birthday which is insane, can't believe we've had him that long, feels like 5 mins!

I feel like I've been so blessed this year and can't wait for our little family to continue to grow and laugh and love in 2017.


Love always,
Mummy x
(a Mummy of two, eeeeek!)