Dear boys,
Today was your first afternoon at preschool Quinn, you had one morning last week, but I was rushing around so wasn't at home for any of the time...but today, today I'm home. It's only a couple of hours between getting home and having to leave again to get Jed but still, it feels so surreal.
I've done some household jobs and made a few phone calls and emails I had to do, and may try and fit some writing in, but still your absence is everywhere.
Now, don't get me wrong, I love a few minutes of peace to myself, and it's fantastic how well you've been running into preschool and just saying "bye mummy, see you later", but there is something so deafening about the silence of the house right now. Even the dogs are quiet and not bickering.
No chatting, no laughter, no shouting. No barking (from the dogs, not you two, although I wouldn't put it past either of you).
No toys clanking around, no pretend sirens being played, no requests for snacks.
Just utter silence.
With only the wind rattling outside, the ticking of the clock and the slow hum of the fridge to break it.
It feels momentous in a way that I didnt expect.
Although I am sure I will all too quickly become accustomed to the silence, for a few hours a week at least, I just wanted to say that right now, it's strange and you are both missed.
Love you always,
Mummy x
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