Letter to Jed: Things I don't want to forget

13.Dec.2016

Dear Jed,

You say thumber when you think you can hear thunder. Or if you hear a loud noise you say "thumber mummy?"

Some of your favourite things to say are "why for?" and "what happened now"

You like to grab hold of our legs or anywhere really and say "i got you"

You love putting on music (you always stand on your little red bike to do so) and you get us to dance with you, but only in the dining room bit, not in the living room and you always pick a toy for us to have, to dance with. You always pick the big tigger, and often give me the big dog, or daddy gets that one and I get a little grey donkey.

It's nearly Christmas and you are very much enjoying the concept of your advent calendar and like to wait until I've opened mine to see if you want to swap. You are also being so good at only opening one of your advent books a day.

You know that the baby is coming soon, and sometimes ask if they are already in the moses basket and you know that they are going to be sitting where you used to in the car. I really feel like you do know what's going on and I hope that you will be happy when your brother or sister arrives.

You are such a chatterbox, which is lovely! And really good at remembering things we've talked about or that happened ages ago.

I plan to add posts like this when I can, but for now...

Love always, Mummy x

Letter to you both: Winging it

Dear Jed and baby,

It's 3am as i write this, I've just got back into bed as Jed you woke up and were a bit upset and now I am struggling to get back to sleep.

With less than 4 weeks to go (less than 2 as i post this now, eek) until you are due little one i am yet again worrying about how I'm going to be as a Mum of two. I'm not going to lie I've been totally winging it thus far. Jed you've been an easy little boy to parent, yeah we've had our challenges, of course we have, but you've been very easy going, but I've still been winging it and with two I can't see how that isn't going to be glaringly obvious now.

I'm worried about the sleepless nights again. Although i know they don't last forever i also know how awful they are, at least last time i was naively and blissfully unaware until they hit me like a truck and i was walking around like a zombie. I worry about being able to be enough for both of you and I pray I'll have more energy than I do at the moment, as poor Jed, you've had to put up with me being pretty lazy and lethargic lately.

I'm going to miss being pregnant too, as besides the odd niggles (and the not so great first trimester) I've really enjoyed being pregnant with both of you, even though you've both sat in the same position and constantly tried your hardest to crack one of my right ribs. So i know I'm probably more hormonal and emotional at the moment than i hope to normally be, but it's all quite overwhelming at the moment.

One thing i do know, i love you both so much.

Love always,
Mummy x