Dear Jed and baby,
It's 3am as i write this, I've just got back into bed as Jed you woke up and were a bit upset and now I am struggling to get back to sleep.
With less than 4 weeks to go (less than 2 as i post this now, eek) until you are due little one i am yet again worrying about how I'm going to be as a Mum of two. I'm not going to lie I've been totally winging it thus far. Jed you've been an easy little boy to parent, yeah we've had our challenges, of course we have, but you've been very easy going, but I've still been winging it and with two I can't see how that isn't going to be glaringly obvious now.
I'm worried about the sleepless nights again. Although i know they don't last forever i also know how awful they are, at least last time i was naively and blissfully unaware until they hit me like a truck and i was walking around like a zombie. I worry about being able to be enough for both of you and I pray I'll have more energy than I do at the moment, as poor Jed, you've had to put up with me being pretty lazy and lethargic lately.
I'm going to miss being pregnant too, as besides the odd niggles (and the not so great first trimester) I've really enjoyed being pregnant with both of you, even though you've both sat in the same position and constantly tried your hardest to crack one of my right ribs. So i know I'm probably more hormonal and emotional at the moment than i hope to normally be, but it's all quite overwhelming at the moment.
One thing i do know, i love you both so much.
Love always,
Mummy x
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