Letter to Jed: Things I don't want to forget

13.Dec.2016

Dear Jed,

You say thumber when you think you can hear thunder. Or if you hear a loud noise you say "thumber mummy?"

Some of your favourite things to say are "why for?" and "what happened now"

You like to grab hold of our legs or anywhere really and say "i got you"

You love putting on music (you always stand on your little red bike to do so) and you get us to dance with you, but only in the dining room bit, not in the living room and you always pick a toy for us to have, to dance with. You always pick the big tigger, and often give me the big dog, or daddy gets that one and I get a little grey donkey.

It's nearly Christmas and you are very much enjoying the concept of your advent calendar and like to wait until I've opened mine to see if you want to swap. You are also being so good at only opening one of your advent books a day.

You know that the baby is coming soon, and sometimes ask if they are already in the moses basket and you know that they are going to be sitting where you used to in the car. I really feel like you do know what's going on and I hope that you will be happy when your brother or sister arrives.

You are such a chatterbox, which is lovely! And really good at remembering things we've talked about or that happened ages ago.

I plan to add posts like this when I can, but for now...

Love always, Mummy x

Letter to you both: Winging it

Dear Jed and baby,

It's 3am as i write this, I've just got back into bed as Jed you woke up and were a bit upset and now I am struggling to get back to sleep.

With less than 4 weeks to go (less than 2 as i post this now, eek) until you are due little one i am yet again worrying about how I'm going to be as a Mum of two. I'm not going to lie I've been totally winging it thus far. Jed you've been an easy little boy to parent, yeah we've had our challenges, of course we have, but you've been very easy going, but I've still been winging it and with two I can't see how that isn't going to be glaringly obvious now.

I'm worried about the sleepless nights again. Although i know they don't last forever i also know how awful they are, at least last time i was naively and blissfully unaware until they hit me like a truck and i was walking around like a zombie. I worry about being able to be enough for both of you and I pray I'll have more energy than I do at the moment, as poor Jed, you've had to put up with me being pretty lazy and lethargic lately.

I'm going to miss being pregnant too, as besides the odd niggles (and the not so great first trimester) I've really enjoyed being pregnant with both of you, even though you've both sat in the same position and constantly tried your hardest to crack one of my right ribs. So i know I'm probably more hormonal and emotional at the moment than i hope to normally be, but it's all quite overwhelming at the moment.

One thing i do know, i love you both so much.

Love always,
Mummy x

Letter to you...

Eeek...my first letter to you... and the photos I have of you so far...

When I was pregnant with your brother I wrote a post, even before we'd actually confirmed we were pregnant... 

To pass on; possibilities are endless

All of these things still stand and I hope them for you too just as much as i did with Jed.

We're currently on our honeymoon as I write this and we were talking about names last night and wondering if you are a boy or girl. Only time will tell as we wanted it to be a surprise again. Well, I think your dad would have happily found out but we kept it as a surprise as he knew I wanted it to be one. 

This time around I'm wondering everything I did with Jed but now I'm also wondering who you'll take after, whether you'll look like Jed (who incidentally looks exactly like I did as a toddler) or whether you'll have your dad's colouring. Whether you and Jed will be two peas in a pod or chalk and cheese.

See (although the resemblance is even stronger in person)

 

Jed is very excited about you, you know. He talks to you a lot. He'll lift up my top and talk straight at my tummy. Often he just shouts food at you like houmous or beans (two of his favourites) but he also hugs you and knows that a "baby is in mummy's belly".

I hope you two get on, I mean I'm not expecting it always, let's be honest chances of that are unrealistic, but most of the time. Having a brother and sister has always been awesome and I hope you enjoy being a little brother or sister to Jed.

You are due 3 months tomorrow little one. Everyone keeps joking you'll come in Christmas day. I personally hope you come a bit before so that your birthday isn't too close to Christmas, but either way this Christmas is going to be extra special and I can't wait!

As I type this up you are currently nudging me all over the shop, my stomach keeps jiggling about, which I love...and earlier Jed asked if he could give the baby a big hug, which was adorable. He kept his hand on my tummy for as long as his toddler patience would allow to try and feel you move earlier, but you went shy and so he didn't get to. 

I can't wait to meet you baby!

Love always,
Mum x

Dear Jed: Changes

Dear Jed,

As I write this, it's only been 3 days since your Dad and I found out that our family is growing and that you, my gorgeous boy, are going to be a big brother. It'll be a while before we tell you, we haven't told anyone yet, (although by the time I post this you'll know). 

You are fast asleep as I write this....

.... and I can't stop looking at you and hoping with all my heart that you will be happy to be a big brother. I know I'm the youngest, so I'm sure it'll be different for you being the eldest, but I loved having a brother and sister to play with and I hope you do too.

You're a little bit younger than we would have planned for you to be, but you know I love surprises!

It's been a while since we told you and you seem quite excited, you like talking to mummy's baby, but you seem to think you can only do if you lift my tshirt up and talk directly to my stomach. You have me in stitches, generally all you like to say to the baby is different food items like shouting "beans,  humous" and then laughing. It's so cute and funny.

When I asked you the other day what the baby's name is, as I thought you never know you might say something we like, you said "Jed's brother, Jed2". Too cute. There's a bit of a cute theme going on to be honest!

You change your mind each time I ask you now as to whether it's Jed's sister or Jed's brother, but we'll find out soon enough.

You've been so helpful so far and I really hope you are just as happy to help out when they arrive, as then hopefully you'll find it exciting, as I know you are so independant already and like to do everything yourself, so I can imagine you might want to take over with the baby...

I'm really excited for this stage of our lives poppet and I really hope you are too.

I'm so proud of you. I hope you know that!

Love always,

Mum x

Letter to Jed: 20m

Dear Jed,

I started writing this blog back in December, when you were asleep on me, but at the time Daddy came home because Saxon, Poes to you, had got separated from him. So, i had to wake you up and we bundled you up and we went out to look while Daddy went out on his bike. I was quite upset when i was getting you dressed as i was worried about Poes and you just looked at me and gave me a big hug, which was so lovely. We then went out in the dark, without a torch as i was in such a hurry and i kept calling for Saxon. You also kept calling out "Po Po" it was so sweet... And we found him you and I!! He just came trotting up the road towards us :-)

This photo was taken when we all got home, very happy and relieved.

I'm telling you this now though because it just struck me how compassionate you were and how proud i was.

Time just races by though baby because now it's mid February and you are 20m old already.

I was thinking the other day (Pre-wedding random thinking) about how I'm getting so many wrinkles but then i thought that actually they are laughter lines... Because i don't I think I've smiled as much in all my life as i have in the last 20m. You are a constant source of happiness and amusement and I'm very grateful!

Your speech is really coming along, you can say lots of things now... Although some need a little bit of translation. Not for us, we know what you are trying to say, but for others.

You said Dadda long before you ever said Mama, but now you say it a lot and I LOVE IT! You also give the best hugs ever. Sometimes you just throw your arms around me and it's so sweet. Plus whenever i hug your Dad you run up and hug both of our legs. Adorable.

You love saying Tactor, Bye, Dadda,  Mama, PoPo, Purple, Turtle, Gone, Bawl (ball), Fro (throw), Door, Bibby and your favourite No.

I keep remarking though how much you understand, it astounds me!

The other day you were feeding Saxon and every time he took the food off you your face was one of amazement,  so cute.

Right now you are busy chatting away with Daddy playing with jigsaws and Postman Pat, who's currently a big favourite.

You are becoming such a confident little man and we love you to the moon and back.

Love always,
Mama x